Inside the Attic... : ~ Loved Ones ~

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Emily Anne

Emily Anne Loves to play in the sand

She loves to climb high in the trees

She plays with the energy most children have

The kind of energy adults could only wish for in their dreams

She has confidence and ambition I admire

She possessed these qualities before she was even born

And she won’t ever allow anyone to take this away from her

Because she knows

She must possess these qualities if she wants to remain strong

She is smart

She is sweet

She is funny

She makes me smile every time she walks into a room

But there are times she is mischievous and moody

And I’ll wonder what she has done with her broom

Emily Anne is a beautiful child

With her big brown green eyes

And her tiny button nose

I love her precious little smile

And how she still runs around on the tips of her toes

She is a little girl who has her life ahead of her

She doesn’t realize she will be my age in the blink of an eye

And when she is

She’ll look back at old pictures and wonder

How could that much time have possible past her by

But for now she is an energetic five year old

Going to school

Learning more each day

And loving with the true heart of a child

Who believes every moment she’s awake is an opportunity to sing and play

Emily Anne loves to play in the sand

She loves to climb high in the trees

And she was put on this earth to remind me

That true love doesn’t only exist in our dreams

~ Emily Anne Gonzales ~

~ Emily Anne ~

Written by G.,G.Rae

Ginger Gonzales

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Hannah’s Hero

He has a tattoo of a clown on his leg

And sometimes

His hair is the colors of the rainbow

He has holes from the piercings he would wear in his face

And scars from the things he has placed in his heart

When people look at him

They don’t always see what’s inside

But she sees him

All of the good that’s inside of him

She sees everything the outside may hide

Because he’s Hannah’s hero

He’s her hero

He makes her feel safe and sound

She knows he loves her when he holds her tight

She could never tell him how he makes her feel with just a simple kiss goodnight

He’s Hannah’s hero

He wears white boots

And works hard all day

So he can get her the things she needs

She makes him happy

She makes him play

She makes him feel strong and alive

And when he holds her tight while she sleeps at night

She makes him realize all of the goodness he has inside

He woke one day and she was gone

Without warning

Or even a simple goodbye

But she hopes he knows that she loves him

And knows the reason why

He’s Hannah’s hero

He’s her hero

He doesn’t know he is the love of her life

But she know he loves her

And thinks of her when he goes to sleep at night

And even though they’re not together

For reasons that just don’t seem right

She hopes he knows that she loves him

And she will for the rest of his life

Because he’s her hero

Dedicated to my brother Alfred &

To the memory of his beautiful daughter

~ Hannah Elizabeth Gonzales ~
**** July 6, 2003 - August 29,2003 ****

Written by G.,G.Rae

Ginger Gonzales

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Bittersweet Goodbye

~ To my children ~

If you are reading this

I am gone

But I couldn’t leave you without saying goodbye

I know this must be hard for you

Please try not to cry

When the tears come because you miss me

Please know that I'm still here

Just because you can’t see me

It doesn’t mean that I’m not there

I can hear you when you talk to me

I can see everything you do

And even thought we’re not together

I hope you know
I am so very proud of you

I will watch over you while you’re sleeping

I will visit you in your dreams

I promise your pain will ease in time

I know how hard that seems

If you need me don’t be sad

I am only a dream away

Remember that I will always love you

And we will be together again someday

~ To my love ~

If you are reading this

I am gone

I couldn’t leave you without saying goodbye

In know this must be hard for you

Please try not to cry

When the tears come because you miss me

Please know that I’m not gone

Death may have taken my body

But my spirit still lives on

Love
I can hear you when you talk to me

I am still watching over you

And even though we’re not together

I haven’t stopped loving you

We will be together again someday

This I know for sure

Because a love like ours is truly rare

And us together is the only cure

Written by G.,G.Rae
Copyright © 2004
Ginger Gonzales
All Rights Reserved

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Maybelle’s Postcard

Maybelle asked me to send her a postcard
Now this was a special request
Because she told me in a dream one night
To lay it where she rests

I was surprised to see her
She had been gone so long
Eight years had passed since I last laid eyes upon her
And that was in a dream one night
One month after she passed on

She told me that she was proud of me
She told me how much she cared
She told me that I could never know
How much she wished that she were here

I had so much to tell her
I didn’t know where to start
Everything I wanted to say
Was too overwhelming for my heart

She looked just like she did
When I was very young
She said that when she died
For her a new journey had begun

She told me not to worry though
She said
I won’t be very far
It will only take a moment for me to get to where you are

She told me
I need for you to know this
Because I never want to see you sad
Remember I lived a long full life that will forever make me glad

I want you to be happy
I want you to go far
So overcome the fears you have and embrace who you are

She kissed me then she hugged me before she had to go
And said
These were a few important things
I needed you to know

I told her that I loved her
I told her how much I cared
I told her that she could never know how much I wished that she were here

As she turned to walk away
Asked her not to go
I said
There’s so much I haven’t told you yet
There’s so much you need to know

She told me not to worry
Said
I will come again another day
But until then
Write it on a postcard for me and rest it where I lay

~ Maybelle’s Postcard ~
Written by G.,G.Rae
Copyright © 2003
Ginger Gonzales
All Rights Reserved

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Charley

Charley was a friend of mine

We met when we were young

There were so many things about him

That made him special

That made him fun

He was his mother’s only child

His step dad was his friend

Everywhere he went

He touched everyone around him

No matter where he was
He fit in

As we grew

He became my brother

He holds a special place within my heart

He will be with me forever

No matter how far we are apart

Charley was a friend of mine

How much I loved him

I hope he knew

I never really got the chance to tell him

Things like that
Shouldn't be so hard to do

He had this inner light

It was as brilliant as the morning sun

He could brighten up the cloudiest day

That is why every day I will think about him

Because I don’t want the light he shared to ever fade away

Charley was a friend of mine

And even thought he is gone

He lives on inside my heart

He lives on inside of those who love him
&
We will never be apart

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Dedicated To The Memory Of My Little Brother
Charles Albert Marco
April 24, 1981 - April 9, 1997
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~ Charley ~

Written by G.,G.Rae

Ginger Gonzales

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The Coffee Crew

We’ll start with the articulate bass player

He’s the one that ties me to this crew

He gets picked up by the workaholic

When he get off of work
And there’s nothing else for him to do

Next they stop off to get the wrestler poet

Who like them is usually bored out of his mind

They know to wake him if he is asleep

Because he’ll get pissed if they leave him behind

Then they make their way to my house

They never call before they come

I hear that goofy knock upon my door

That says it time to have some fun

I try not to take forever getting ready

I put my boots on in the car

I always ask where we’re headed

Thought it usually isn’t far

We might go to that diner on the corner

We might stop by that place on Paris Road

We make our way to our table

We order our coffee and unload

We look for a few others to show up

Like the future director

Who is never far behind in his car

Looks for us when he gets off of work

If we’re not home

It not hard to figure out where we are

He’s usually up for anything

Especially hanging out with the crew

So he looks for us when he gets off of work

Because like the rest of us

There’s nothing else for him to do

I look for friends we don’t see anymore

Like that wacky bastard

Now he was a fun and crazy guy

Or that Danish chick

Who came to America
To live with that meticulous tattoo guy

Those two to me

Were very special friends

And even though I haven’t seen them in forever

I hope they know I think of them often

And I look forward to the day we meet up again

Now that tattoo guy

We still see him every now and then

And when we do we can’t help but laugh

Because he is such a sarcastic and funny friend

We go through gallons of coffee

We might talk for an hour or two

But some nights we get lost in conversation

And it’s daylight before we’re through

We talk about the things we want

And the things we’d like to leave behind

It’s hard to run out of conversation

So many personalities at one table

And the freedom to say whatever is on our minds

I like it when we all get together

I enjoy spending time with the crew

On those days we all have off

And there’s nothing else for us to do

The Coffee Crew

Written by ~G.,G.Rae

Ginger Gonzales

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Kindred

We met in 2013

What began with a simple “HI”

Turned into many words

That Did & Do

So much more than past the time

He is my friend

I am certain

Of what I know of him

And aware of the fact

That I barely know him at all

Mato

The nickname suits him well

A bear of a man

He most definitely is

A good man in the Badlands

He guards swift fox and bison

A is a single father
He is guarded

He works hard to protect

And provide for his beautiful kids

His laugh

I love the sound of it

And the way he says my name

Regardless of how long

I feel privilege to have him in my life

His friendship has kept my heart open

I am so grateful for him

And because of him

I am forever changed

Pictures

Words

Music

Moments

Memories made

With this man

That I have met

But have never met

Still

It was he who said it best

When he said

. . . to the moon and back

…Kindred…

Written by G.,G.Rae

Ginger Gonzales

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. . . to the moon . .

I didn't know what to say to you

Words weren't enough anymore

And they are not enough now

Leaving things the way I did

Was something I had to do

It's hard to believe so much time has passed

When time feels as though it creeps along

Not a day goes by that don't think of you

I wonder "how" and "what" you are doing

I wonder what you think about in your quiet moments

I wonder if you think of me

I missed you before I went away

I missed you

And I didn't want to

I miss you now

And feel the bittersweet of never wanting to forget

The sound of your voice

Your laugh

And the way that only you could say my name

I hope to know you tangibly someday

If we are meant to

On that day we'll see

Between now and then

You are there

And I am here

I know you are loved

I pray you are happy

Stay Safe & Well

And I hope you never forget what I told you

When I told you

How truly special you are to me...

. . . too the moon . .

Written by GGRae

Ginger Gonzales

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~ Loved Ones ~

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