Restless...

I wake up 

I go through the motions

I wait for something that won’t happen
I sit and stare at a blank sheet of paper

I refuse to write what I need to say

Too many years

Too many losses

Not crying or venting like I need

I try to keep moving forward

Knowing I’ve lost my way

Nothing feels right anymore

Just empty

I move ahead
But it's an almost motionless crawl

Wanting all of this spinning to stop

I can't see straight
And I can no longer make sense of it all

You can’t hear me when I call to you

But my words I know you’ll feel

This isn’t a dream to be awaken from

This life and pain is far too real

Wishful thinking was my curse

I no longer dream asleep or awake

I no longer feel much of anything anymore

I don’t know how much more I can take

How many deaths can one survive

How many chances does one get

Backseat driving in my own life

Quietly asking myself
Why I'm not there yet

Papa
I miss you

Angel
I’m sorry

To the one that hurt me
Leave me alone
I’m not yours anymore

And to The One
I know you feel me

What the fuck are you waiting for

~ Restless ~

Written by G.,G.Rae

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